Monday, December 29, 2008
Saya teringat perkataan bapak saya waktu itu...
"Segala sesuatu, apapun itu, yang sifatnya terlalu, hasilnya tidak akan baik. Dan begitu juga segala sesuatu yang dipaksakan, hasilnya juga tidak akan baik."
"Kehancuran, keberhasilan, kebahagiaan, semua itu tergantung kita sendiri. Bukan orang lain. 95% dari itu semua kita sendiri yang menentukan. Dari keputusan dan pilihan yang kita buat dan dari bagaimana kita menyikapi segala sesuatunya."
Jujur, saya sedikit paham dengan apa yang diucapkan bapak. Hanya sedikit. Saya masih belum bisa memahami sepenuhnya kata-kata bapak.
Tapi sekarang, saya mulai memahami perkataan bapak waktu itu. Tadi, setelah menelpon kamu, saya terdiam dan memikirkan semuanya. Kamu benar. Selama ini saya memang keterlaluan. Pemahaman saya yang salah, ditambah ketidaktahuan saya telah menempatkan saya pada posisi saya sekarang. Ternyata saya lah yang menyebabkan segala kekecewaan, luka dan ketakutan saya. Bukan orang lain, bukan teman-teman saya. Tapi saya sendiri.
Terima kasih. Terima kasih karena kamu telah membuka mata saya. Terima kasih telah membuat saya dapat memahami semua ini. Terima kasih telah menyadarkan saya. Terima kasih telah mau bersabar menghadapi saya*dengan segala kerumitan saya*. Terima kasih telah memahami saya. Terima kasih atas kasih sayang, kesabaran dan pengertian kamu. Terima kasih...
I love you...
nopz @
10:24 PM ♥
I Just Want To Say... I Luv You
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I'm not the kind of person who can sit nicely while I'm curious. I'll figure it out. Well, I remember when Donz told me that sometimes it's better of not knowing if you cant stand the truth. But not for me.. So, a few days a go...I asked my friend who knew you better than me. Then she told me 'bout "it". Kinda shock me * a bit*. But guess I'm able to handle it. So I looked for the articles related to "it". Re-read every sentence. Try to understand it. Do I...? Nope... Not really... Hiehehehe... But I will. Yes, I will...!!!
Then I called you. Told you that I already knew. I told you that I just cant stand to not knowing you. Then I asked you, is that okay for you if I knew 'bout "it". You said, "It's okay..." Then you asked me, is that okay for me knowing 'bout "it"...? 'Bout how you are...? 'Bout your condition...? Then I said, "It's okay..."
Honey, to be honest, I don't know what's on your mind that night while we talked 'bout "it". I really don't know...Wish I can read your mind. The only thing I know is...
I Love YouI Do Love You So...Nitenite... Luv you *hugs and kisses*
nopz @
12:44 AM ♥
"Time To Burn" - The Rasmus
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Fear of the dark tears me apart
Won't leave me alone and time keeps running out
Just one more life, I'm so sick and tired
Of singing the blues, I should turn my life around
Tell me why do I feel this way
All my life I`ve been standing on the borderline
Too many bridges burned
Too many lies I've heard
I had life but I can't go back
I can't do that, it will never be the same again
And I know I don't
Have any time to burn
They follow me home, disturbing my sleep
But I'll find a place, place where they cannot find me
Maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared
But too many times I've closed the doors behind me
Leave it all behind
Cross the borderline
Face the truth, don't have any time to...
Don't have any time to burn
* sing this song oover and over and over....
nopz @
12:19 AM ♥
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Nope... I didn't delete my old post. Just put them on draft. I try to move on. Restart my life. Left all the bad memories behind... This is the hardest part... All of these times, feels like the memories hold me tight, never let me go... I'm kinda tired haunted by my past life *the bitter one*. But why it never be easy to moving on?. And today, I got slap by it...*PLAK* God, how I hate what I feel inside...!!! Haven't you learn your lesson, Nopz...?! I don't know... Hope I wont make the same mistakes. Arrrghhh...whats the point of this post...? Dunno... !!! Hate this situation as well!!!
nopz @
4:46 PM ♥
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